If I was a baller

I was feeling pretty good about myself for a hot minute there

New bag, who dis

Got some new sneakers

And pants that fit me

Started thinking ok

Maybe it’s time

Maybe I could find

Someone

.

Now for some reason I think

Everything has to be on point

Right car, right job, right outfit

Right zip code

Before someone might

Notice me

What is that need

I never felt it before

I had the currency

The youth

The genetics

My body was enough I guess

Fishings easy when you got good bait

.

I’ve never been subtle

But it never mattered

Now I have learned to ice queen

Everything else seems

Cheap

Somehow

I played hard to get until I was

Impossible

And now I don’t remember

How to like someone

At least when I do

The recoil is extreme

.

What is it about today

You’re not meant to show it

How would anyone know

If you turn towards

They turn away

Looking for another

Streamlined unavailable shutdown

To push past

Haven’t we grown out of that

Yet

Can’t we just be

Real

And say I like you

Do you like me

Why is it a game

It’s confusing enough as it is

Why make it harder

To understand

If someone

Wants

To

.

Connect

.

The stakes are high I guess

But still

Even now

Hands are held

Walks taken

Stories told

Meals shared

Behind all the fear

There is a friend

Somewhere

.

If you see them

Please wave them over

And give them this

Maybe they will know

And feel brave

Enough

To

Speak