Freezing Autumn Evening

looking for an excuse to feel

tired is enough, drawn to vulgar mundanities

rather pertinent intimacies

never tell anyone again

borne away from intimacy by pain and fears greeting

would the feeling disintegrate?

walk across heart

cure too close for reason

move away to complete a thought

as light grows dimmer

losing focus, an animal

entered into unnatural relationship

happy to think, to be honest

but about what?

a shell, a husk, o masked Adonis

a gesture’s shadow fades

wasted talent untamed

once together again in work anew

feeling cleaner like pure white tofu protein without blood

my hands no use to hold me

futures seen and written

time’s bereaved son

you build the boat and call the waters down

a true green world unfolding at your feet

a flash beneath above the sky continues on

reverberates continue longer

time and fainter still listening until chimes no more

silence

tired must blow out candle

silence

may clean no more

wish to dream in wonder

bring not back unto this shore