Bitter Party of One

i wonder where i was

the moment you stopped loving me

where was i standing, what did i say

when you decided strong love tastes bitter

.

was i walking along under the same sun

when the knots in our hearts came undone

was i talking to someone or was i alone

the moment you stopped loving me

.

did i feel it and not even know

when you decided it best to just let me go

or did the hole in my heart open silently

when you stood in the dark of night to leave

.

did my heart skip a beat or my knees go weak

like they did when your eyes flashed at me

or did the hole in my heart open silently

the moment you stopped loving me

.

here i stand where i have fallen

on the ground where your feet used to be

i have stalled here unable to move

in this place where you once needed me

hoping some desperate way i can feel

what it felt like when you wanted me

.

before the price became too high to pay

before you made the choice to walk away

the moment you stopped loving me

.

once the bond of trust was broken

i barred the wheel and stove the spokes in

stop this love i want out from under

what once protected now chokes

.

without love your bonds will strangle

in loveless bower life leeches slowly

untended wither, wilted i crumble

.

soon the winds will lift my remains

scatter me to the four directions

and i too will be gone

.

atomized, broken down

to drift unloved, unseen

in eddies of forgotten dust